Showing posts with label grad schools. Show all posts
Showing posts with label grad schools. Show all posts

22 September 2008

an apology and an explanation, of sorts

greetings and salutations, dear friends. i want you all to know that i think of you often, each one of you (cheryl, chandra, nessa, holly, etc etc etc) and hope that you're well. if i'm lucky, i may have a second to read your blogs to see how you're doing (esp. after the hurricane! btw my parents still dont have power and they said it might not be until MID OCT! very uncool).
however.

grad school is awesome, and i love every second of it. but I. AM. SO. BUSY. OMG.
i have so much reading to do, and writing, and even when i have "free time" it's not free b/c i have to organize this or fix that or maybe even nap? because for some reason i AM SO TIRED ALL THE TIME (i think it's the reading) so i sleep a lot. and i wanted to say i'm sorry to those of you i dont get to talk to often-- it's not that i dont want to, or dont care at ALL! it's because holyshitiamsoBUSY!
i also got a job at Great Harvest Bread Company here (harv #3!) and i only work 10 hours a week but it makes me busier. but i love working there SO much! it's really fun. and i love every minute of grad school.
i just prob. wont get to talk to you all until christmas. but FEAR NOT!
i shall be home (most likely) from like Dec 19th to Jan 20th! A WHOLE MONTH! JOY!
so that's the update. gotta go read read read
xo!

ps- but i do want to reiterate that i am SO SO happy and i LOVE grad school and my life here! LOVE it!

07 April 2008

I am going to William and Mary

i chose william and mary and just emailed my acceptance to them! HOORAY! there are lots of reasons why i finally chose this one, but the highlights are:
1. it has the best reputation in American Studies of all the schools i applied to
2. there's a prof there doing EXACTLY what i want to do (women in american religion)
3. it's a gorgeous place and i would love to live there
4. i'm thisclose to renting a cottage with cathedral ceilings and wood floors (YAY)
5. it's 1.5 years, so cheaper than any other program (with the exception of UT)
6. my fav prof at skidmore has tons of friends from harvard that teach there
7. i can prob. get into a much better phD program from w&m than anywhere else (unless i stay at w&m, which is possible)
8. i've made friends with a grad student via email, wendy, and she seems really awesome so i already have a friend there!

here's a good story: i was looking at w&m's radio station website when i came across a show that sounded great and the DJ played a lot of music i like. i thought, "hooray! i can make a friend!" and DJ turned out to be my friend Wendy, the american studies grad student! what are the odds? i mean REALLY? i feel like that's a total sign.

so thank you everyone who have offered help, support, a shoulder to stress out on, etc etc. please come visit me in Williamsburg, Virginia! i move in beginning to mid August, so let's hang out before then!

25 March 2008

the PROs and CONs of grad school

dear discounted easter candy,
i love you, even though you are not weight watchers approved.
sincerely,
karen

so schools. still haven't heard from umass Boston, got waitlisted at UT women's studies (thank god its not a no) and i have w&m and purdue. I've gotten many opinions, looked at housing, emailed current grad students at each program, etc. here is the pros and cons list, because it helps me a lot:

PROS

UT: where to begin! best housing, cheap moving costs, cheap living costs, get to live with LIESL YAY, all my friends there, i love the city, i have an austin cell #, internationally known school, i'd get to work with AMS people while in the WS dept., there are a lot of people who would help me do great things, i have a better chance of getting into the AMS program for a PhD. did i mention i love austin the most??

PURDUE: i find out next week if they are offering me a TA position (all tuition paid, i'd start teaching classes by 2nd semester my first year which is GREAT since i want to be a prof.), cheap living, not terribly expensive moving costs, don't have to reapply to get into the Phd, profs are nice, dept. is very accessible and emails me often and with helpful info, they seem like they really want me, grad students very helpful and nice, i have family in indianapolis (>1 hr away), friends in chicago (>2 hrs away, also amazing city)

W&M: really great program, it's the only one thats 1 year so it's less $ than purdue (unless purdue gives me a full ride...), GORGEOUS area, my fav. prof at Skidmore said go there over anywhere if you can, lots of great profs, grad students say it's a great program and the faculty are very accessible and give you their home #s on the syllabi, etc.

CONS:
UT: i want a master's in american studies (but can live with WS), i am really sick of the race/class/gender ws's trifecta, i'm annoyed that UT sucks and are really hard to reach in every dept.

PURDUE: it's indiana, the town is pretty much just the school, not as prestigious as other programs, don't know a soul at the school.

W&M: really expensive apartments, expensive moving costs, the prof i want to work with sort of blew me off, one year intensive program (you finish your thesis during the summer) so i don't know how i'd apply to a PHD program, i'd have to take out 50k in loans.

so basically: i will go to UT if i get in and Purdue doesn't offer me any $, but it's most likely that Purdue will offer me $ so i'm prob. going there. but if Purdue doesn't offer me that much $ and UT lets me in, I'll go to UT. w&m is my last resort at this point.
got it?

IN OTHER NEWS: mikey is moving to brussels for 3 years at the end of may. he and i have a wonderfully insane trip planned (may 7-20th, in nyc, boston, marshfield, cape cod, maine) that involves a lot of fun and possibly a lot of drinking (and lots of amazing friends of course). then i have a family reunion in north carolina for 2 weeks in june, one week in aspen for my cousin's wedding, and then i come home and move to either indiana or austin.

17 March 2008

Dear Austin, i love you. Love, Me

hello all my faithful readers. i was just reminded that Dancing with the Stars comes back on tonight, and although they do not have any awesome celebrities this season (other than steve guttenberg, of course, because HI three men and a baby best movie ever!), i'm still excited. hooray! something to take up my mondays and tuesday nights! and top chef is on again also so that is wed. nights (although, im a little ashamed to admit, but i dont love it like i love proj. runway).
anyway. I'm really too sleepy to blog much-- had a fantastic weekend in austin, saw old friends, had lots of wine and good food, shopped a lot, got tangled up in some sxsw, dressed up and had a fancy dinner, and generally had a wonderful time. i did not, however, sleep much or well, so i'm very much looking forward to going to bed directly after Dancing is on (aka 8 30 pm).

it was also lovely to have a weekend where i didn't obsess over grad schools. i am super lucky and thankful to have options, but i keep going back and forth until i'm almost insane. i had some good chats with grad school-knowledgeable people this wkend (general consensus: purdue) so that was helpful. i am still waiting on women's studies at UT and umass Boston. UT american studies, my dream program, said no. :( i am sad. however, there are other schools that want me, so i will make it work!
bon nuit mes chous.

11 March 2008

The College of William & Mary said YES!


holy shit ya'll. the College of William & Mary said yes to grad school! sweet god in heaven i never thought THAT would happen. they only take 33% of applicants! it's the second oldest school in the nation (founded in 1693) after Harvard! It's in Williamsburg, VA, site of Colonial Williamsburg (where they have people dress up and do blacksmithing, etc). They are offering me no funding whatsoever, which is tricky (11-12k per semester just for tuition), but i'm pretty much in the same boat at Purdue (i applied for a TA position in women's studies but i may not get it). however, let's focus on how shocking and amazing it is that i got into this school:

fun facts: w&m has a lot of secret societies and had the first ones (take that, skull and bones at yale!). thomas jefferson went there, jon stewart was class of '84, it had the first law school (and still one of the best, today), and a ton of other important people (like supreme court justices) are alumns. Phi Beta Kappa was founded there in 1776 and it has a huge greek life (but no greek life for grad students).

fun fact from wikipedia: Unofficial traditions include the Triathlon, a set of three tasks to be completed by each student prior to graduation. These include jumping the wall of the Governor's Palace in Colonial Williamsburg after hours, and if so inclined, running through the Boxwood Maze to the Palace itself, steaking through the Sunken Gardens, and swimming in the Crim Dell.
Another unofficial tradition, which the College administration attempts to quell each year, occurs on the last day of classes in the spring and is referred to by the students as "Blowout." On this day, it is customary to wake up early, begin drinking before one's classes, and show to up to class intoxicated and spend the rest of the day at the numerous keg parties which are always held. On this day, a student can win a t-shirt claiming they stayed sober on that day if they blow a .00 into a breathalizer, which is usually administered by a student group at the Sunken Gardens.

Crazy! There is also a lot of drama surrounding the recent departure of their president, and that info can be found here: http://jezebel.com/356171/state-fires-college-president-for-hosting-sex-workers-art-show (via Jezebel, my favorite blog ever)

YAY ME! i still want to go to UT, but i'm hopeful that if i got into w&m, i might get into UT? maybe?? please? i should know by this week! (also waiting on UMassBoston, but unless they offer me a full ride that's a no).
one last quote: "William and Mary can make a good case for being the most selective public college in America. Its size . . . is ideal, the envy of a good many prestigious private colleges. Its setting and its own lush campus . . . provide the stuff calendars are made of. Its academic program . . . is no nonsense, followed by impressive placement in graduate schools and jobs." Richard Moll, author of The Public Ivys: A Guide to America's Best Public Undergraduate Colleges and Universities.

20 February 2008

comfortably numb

hello all. this is going to be a bullet-point style blog of things, because my attention span is not very large right now.
- my coworkers shooting darts in the cubicle next to me doesn't even bother me
- i am sort of spacey and numb, like i'm floating on a cloud today. there is a reason for that.
- i had a really, really, REALLY bad weekend that involved going a little crazy and a lot of crying for no reason (well there are some reasons). thank you everyone who was there for me and who listened and offered advice. it helped A LOT.
- i am lonely. i'd love to hang out with people more but it's hard-- i have so much free time and other people don't. well i just want you all to know that for anyone, anywhere, not just me-- just a friendly call, or email, to say "hi, i was thinking about you" goes a LONG way. it's something that i try really hard to remember because it can mean so much.
- my cats are great, btws. a little destructive of the house (they've broken 2 glass hurricanes that had candles in them that my mom had on the dining room table, whoops) but none the less they are great and adorable.
- no new news from grad school. i will know prob. by march 7th or so at the latest. the suspense was killing me, but not anymore.
- i have decided i need some new projects. one of them will be to take a picture of myself and 1 other thing every single day and post it up here. starting today. (in a new post)
- weight watchers is going pretty well. i didn't do so hot this wkend, but eating crazy things helped my mood so it's kinda a trade off...
- i bought a bike yesterday. and even though i put the seat all the way down, my feet still can't reach the ground. it's been so long since i'd ridden a bike that i had trouble getting started and my mom LITERALLY had to hold the handlebars and push me along like i am 4. then i started going fast down the driveway and was like "whoawhoa MOOOM whoa help!" as she laughed hysterically behind me. i need training wheels.


- ok, so let's address why nothing bothers me anymore. i decided the anxiety i've had for the past couple months (aka years) was coming to a head and i needed help. my Dr. gave me effexor yesterday and i started it then. the effects shouldn't be felt until what, like 2 weeks? but he also gave me ambien to sleep and i still feel numb because of that. not sleepy, just slow and numb. but not anxious, nor am i really unhappy, or super lonely anymore.
i was feeling anxious (shocking) about my decesion to get back on anti depressants (i was on them for about a year or so in 03-04) because of how anti depressants are stigmatized: you are either crazy so you need them, or you are overmedicating because you just need to chill out. while i agree people are way overmedicated and i dont want to feel numb, i also dont want to feel panic-y and i dont want to be that person who is always neurotic on the phone and it's like "what's the crisis for today?" you know? i hate feeling numb but i'm going to do my best to find the balance between non anxious and numb.
i'll let you know how it goes.

ps-- who reads this blog? my bff, mikey, admitted to not reading it. it made me kinda sad, because do i have much of a readership? i think there's 4 of you?

06 February 2008

YAY! PURDUE UNIVERSITY said YES!

YAY! i got into Purdue University for grad school! this is what the email i received today said:


"Dear Karen - I am pleased to be able to tell you that the graduate admissions committee in American Studies at Purdue has recommended your for admission to the M.A. program. You will be receiving official notification from both the program and the Graduate School soon.

In the meantime, we are working on possible funding packages for you. One of the areas we are looking at is a possible teaching assistantship in the Women's Studies program. They require students to complete an application and other materials. The application is will be available soon on-line at the following URL: http://www.cla.purdue.edu/womens-studies/graduate/assist_app.cfm. Once the application is available, I will notify you and have you complete it. You can then send it directly back to me so I can compile the other information they need.



We are also pursuing the possibility of a teaching assistantship in the Department of History. As I stated above, we will be back in touch soon with more information. Congratulations and I look forward to hearing from you!"



YAY! i wrote back this gibbering email saying thank you like 10 million times! great news! Purdue is in West Layfayette, Indiana. it's less than 2 hours from chicago and less than 1 hour from indianapolis (where my aunt, uncle and cousin live, which is awesome). Purdue is a great school, i had some wonderful responses from profs there, and the living expenses are CHEAP. plus it looks pretty:
so let's take a closer look at this school....the mascot is the Boilermakers, wtf? it's a train, and a "Purdue Pete" (aka someone in a crazy mascot uniform) acts like the conductor, or "boilermaker". unfortunately the purdue website is hard to navigate so that's one strike against it. the colors are black and gold (not bad). this is what it says about history: "Founded in 1869 and named after benefactor John Purdue, Purdue University began its journey with six instructors, 39 students and a mission to provide agriculture and mechanic arts education." there's about 5 campuses (i'd go to the main one, in west layfayette) with 70,000 students overall and 40,000 at the main campus (nice change from skidmore's 2500 people, thats for sure). it's in the top 10 for football, and apparently the "Big 10" thing was the president of Purdue's idea in the late 1800s. it's quite cold and snowy but NOTHING compared to saratoga. (and i miss snow so that's nice). it is 17 hours from my house, and i will have to travel 1061.75 miles to get there from Houston.

alright! this concludes (mostly) your (and my) lesson on Purdue! (to the left is an aerial shot of the campus)




so we have 3 more schools and 4 programs total to hear from (umassBoston, william&mary, and UT for american studies and women's studies). UT is still my #1 school, so we'll see. i kind of feel like it's a marriage proposal to each school-- kansas turned me down but purdue said yes!

purdue does have many great things going for it, and whatever happens-- i will be a grad student in 2008 somewhere! HOORAY! three cheers! HIP HIP HOORAY :)

24 January 2008

Que sera, sera (what will be, will be)

guten morgan mein leibchen, bonjour mes chous, hola mi tacos.
i am way out of it today due to taking a valium yesterday (it was a bad day but it got infinitely better once the valium came along) and forgetting that now that i am on weight watchers, my body's kind of in starvation mode so it will affect me longer! the odd thing is i took it at 4 30, chilled out, made a DELISh dinner with my mom, and then all of a sudden after dinner i started to get way more out of it and spacey. i promise these are not the time-release kind (do they even make those?) so i was barely able to stay up for PR and passed out. and i am still feeling the effects today!

by the way, so many people have trouble using the correct "affect" and "effect." pertaining to a subject it's "affect" as in, "this affects me so much," and pertaining to an object it is "effect" as in "the effect on the environment is unknown"
someone who knows grammar better (i.e. labes) can explain it better. this concludes your grammar lesson of the day!

so i was reading up on some presidential candidates and all i have to say is: obama, i think you're mean and don't have enough experience; hillary, i want to vote for you but now i just dont know; romney you are such a robot and we should not have a mormon president; mccain, i not-so-secretly like you and i think you're our BEST hope for a republication; guliani is a THUG; huckabee is a religious zealot who will probably grow a long beard and pretend he's the second coming of jesus.
that concludes our presidential opinion part of the blog.

i'm on weight watchers now, for those of you who don't know. it's very hard, i'm often hungry, but i'm making it work. why not? it's a lot cheaper, i really don't need huge portion sizes, and i can afford to lose some of the lbs that have snuck on since college. i have a FANTASTIC support group (mikey, bets, kenne) who are all doing it with me and thank you to everyone else who offers words of encouragement along the way.

work update: work is a little crazy, as my coworkers are all being loud right now (and in my out of it state, im SO distracted) and yesterday my boss quit. what does this mean for the company? total chaos. let's hope it doesn't upset my position too much.

i am really REALLY antsy to move and hear from grad schools. kansas sent me an email telling me they'd shoot me a letter in about a week! AWESOME. i researched some tuition costs and got a ballpark figure of what each school would cost (including: tuition, rent, bills, food expenses, gas, etc.-- i am not going to be rolling in student loan $, but i refuse to be a starving grad student). oddly enough, William and Mary, Purdue, and UmassBoston are all about the same (tuition is around 11k per semester and living costs would be about the same) and UT and Kansas are the same (tuition is about 3k, living costs will be the same). Kansas is CHEAP for out of state! i am very impressed. they pride themselves on that, and with good reason! it's also in a very pretty city (lawrence, KS) and the campus is very lovely as well. let's hope i have a lot of options for grad school (and lots of scholarships, or a full ride, or fellowships, etc etc). yay!


so womb buddy is moving to portland next week. it's pretty! and pretty cold. here is a lovely picture:

Good luck wb!

18 January 2008

Cats are Essential for Human's Well-Being

look at this great quote i came across today: "Cats are more than just pets," said Naoki Yanase, a professor of English literature at Seijo University. "They radiate serenity and are essential for the well-being of humans."

yep! that also reminds me, thessaly is more likely a Japanese Bobtail cat than a Manx, because manx tails don't have a curve or kink in them and Thess's tail has a 90 degree right angle in it! (so cute). so, world, i now own a Ragdoll/Siamese and a Japanese Bobtail/possible Domestic Shorthair.
i am sure you are riveted by this new breakthrough.

anyway. in other news, i bought some things from itunes for the first time the other day, and .99 doesn't seem like a lot at first for a song but it adds up! jeez. i bought a few tori b-sides that have eluded me thus far so it was worth it, but still. i'm also trying to download music and such but haven't found anything that i really like! people! send me your suggestions!

so it's friday and i have some fun things going on today and not a lot else going on for the weekend. and i found out that most of my rec's were sent to grad school and Purdue sent me an email, "we'll let you know mid-February" which is SO exciting and i just want to move and go to school and paint my new apt and have fun with it! life! let's get on with it!

that is all. happy weekend people.
(next post: i'll talk about tv. new what not to wear today, and i am rather enjoying this Make me a Supermodel on bravo. lets discuss)

and here is a video of ellen and me in Galveston:

15 January 2008

it's a new year and i'm glad to be here*

bonjour mes chous, comment ca-va? i dont even know if that's totally right...

so i'm bored again. not a whole ton of a lot has been going on: i had a WONDERFUL starbucks date with cheryl last night (and hope to see her a lot more in 2000 and GREAT), i had fun getting a little tipsy (who am i kidding, i was flat out drunk) on saturday night with nessa and jesse, carrie, angel, and it was fun drunkenly running into Jessica, Liesl and Tanya at poison girl.

other than that, the only thing that has happened is ellen came into town, which was GREAT and FUN and i think i'm esp. bored now that she's gone b/c we had good times while she was here. went to museums, nasa (which is totally like a dirty McD's playground), galveston (that was fun), hung out with nessa and her bf jesse a LOT (yay!), lauren came into town, and we ate a lot of good food (ruggles, barnaby's, empire cafe, to name a few). it was good and fun and it was nice to show a die hard yankee that texas is fun. YAY! but now she's gone and i'm bored again. want to come back ellen? ;)



other than that, i am REALLY excited to say: ALL MY GRAD SCHOOL STUFF IS DONE! TURNED IN! fini! only now comes the fun part: waiting and having really no idea what schools i'll get into, if any. i'm not trying to be fatalistic, only realistic, as most of these programs only take 7-15 people max. every year and there are SO many factors going into who is chosen. i did my best this year and we'll have to see if that was good enough. For now, a review of the schools i applied to: univ of kansas, purdue univ. in indiana, umass boston, univ of texas (2 programs-- amer studies and womens studies), and william and mary (that's my longshot-- they are SNOBBY and expensive). #1 is UT for many reasons, but kansas and purdue are right up there at #2. umass boston is my back up (even though its a great program) mainly b/c it (along with w&m) will be the most $$ program if i go there. w&m will be $$, but i think it's cheaper to live in williamsburg, virginia than it is in boston, and w&m is a lot more prestigious than umassB. we'll see. i honestly don't know-- and i won't until march or april. so cross your fingers for me, i'll cross the eyes, and i'll keep everyone posted. there may be some visits to schools in march/april/may, there may not. there may be some celebrations to be had, there may be news that i'm contemplating suicide. we'll see. :D plan B is to move to Austin, so either way, I'm out of here.

in the meantime, i am spending time fantasising what my new apt (wherever i do move) is going to look like, what furniture i'll take with me, what new furniture i'll need, etc. the key word here is fantasy, as i have no idea what kind of $$ i'll have to get new furniture, or depending on how far i'm moving i may have to take less things (and it's not like i have a lot of furniture that really is mine, other than my bed, desk, desk chair, and...well that's it). luckily, as the only daughter who has not taken furniture off to some exotic (or not, hello college station) locales, i figure it's my turn and i get whatever's left. since we have a surplus of furniture, it looks like i could possibly take a lot of things. YAY! i also am enjoying spending time on the behr.com website to look at paint (i want things in a deep merlot-y violet purple, with light ballet pink, white, and lime green as accent colors). to match this theme my furniture has to be either black or white (im leaning towards black) and most of the furniture we have is wood so there may be some spray paintin' up in here. it's all hypothetical but enjoyable and i'm looking forward to making a major life decision and really, sort of, starting my twenty-something life. (not looking as forward to the papers i will have to write, or the # of pages i'll have to read, or the tons of loans i'll have to take out, but it's going to be worth it).



anyway, that's that. what's new with you?

ps- the cats are doing great. they are spoiled little babies and i'm sure are not as excited about my moving as i am since they'll have to leave a huge house and fun grandparents to play with.

*quote is from a Yeasayer song that i am listening to right now